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Well today was Memorial Day and we had the unexpected pleasure being given the day off…But if CPT Anderson asks you then we worked the whole night! It was pretty cool the USO brought in some caterers into our zone and they made hamburgers and hot dogs and had some deserts, watermelon and other things I didn’t get to see. I’m pretty sure all the food was dining facility(DFAC) food though. But its better than nothing they had music playing outside and had a scavenger hunt and some other things going on which is more than you would have gotten if you were in Iraq. I didn’t partake in any of it though. I was/am preparing to go out later tonight so unfortunately I missed out on that stuff. But as I was walking around and then seeing some of the things they were showing on TV with interviews of soldiers and then I don’t know being out the wire then back here in garrison everything just feels so surreal! I don’t know where I am or why I’m here or what I’m doing. I’m just running around like a chicken with its head cut off.
This deployment is soooooo different from last time. I got the chance to watch a part of my DVD from last time and I was just overwhelmed with feelings of nostalgia. I had so much fun last time around! I’m not saying that there aren’t some things about this deployment that aren’t fun just I guess what I’m missing most is the freedom that I had last time? That or I’m just homesick and THAT is weird. I think what’s killing me is being here in Kuwait! Or having to go back to Kuwait after every mission. I really hate it! Kuwait is supposed to be the place you go to before you go home. Then you have people here that are wearing civilian clothes everywhere. You don’t have to deal with getting mortared everyday and you don’t walk around in the pitch dark to sounds of gunfire. That’s what kills me. Its cause you let your guard down! And I really probably shouldn’t I mean it was just last month that they found a bomb by the phone center and blew that up here in Kuwait! But this place is soooo garrison. Within in the past two days I’ve seen civilian contractors that just came to post to go shop at the PX. That’s weird! And it seems ridiculous to me. I think what really through me for a loop was when I saw this wife of the one of the contractors walking around the PX her 5yr old daughter. I was like uh…how are you here! Why are you here! I forget that contractors can bring their families with them if they work in Kuwait because they have to live off post. Today I saw this old guy…probably a contractor shopping with his son for a new backpack for school…it just blows my mind! Anyway I should go to sleep I have a long day.